In the past 24 hours, I have had two dreams in which Melony was trying to warn me of danger.

The first one, I was at this building that was undergoing construction.  Apparently, I was helping out with some promotional material for a convention.  I walked in and then remembered that I had training for my job all of that week early in the morning.  So as you may guess, there was a lot of running back and forth because of freaking out.

At one point, I was back in this place that resembled a theater's lobby, with coral colored padded walls and low hanging chandeliers.  I was waiting with friends for something, not sure what, maybe a bus.  But I ended up back in the other building later.  With Melony with me.  And at some point, I was inside of her head.

She was trying really hard to find a bathroom, not used to human functions.  But there were construction workers working in every one.  Finally, she gave up and went outside.  But when she came back in, there was this big guy that was slimy and gross, and he wanted to kidnap her.  She ran away from him, hiding in any nook that she could, but he kept finding her, telling her that he wanted to take her to Disney land for 8 or 9 days.  At one point, we split again and she ran up to my leg, clinging to it for dear life.  She was crying, and Stanley wasn't around.  I grabbed her and we ended up almost teleporting to this room that was lined with toys, rainbow aluminum baseball bats, and children playing.  She didn't leave my side until an adult came over and showed me the "promotional material".  It was a fighting video game where he took Melony and animated her.  But he messed up and made her face off against Stanley when she was trying to fight a different person.  I yelled at the guy for messing up her face and wanted to break everything.

I woke up, laughed it off, and left Cody's house to meet my friend for coffee.


I decided to take a nap when I got home, and it was very restless.  At first I dreamed of silly things- filling up a swimming pool with water in the back yard and watching a child fuss over the fact that it wasn't the big pool in my apartment complex.  But then it got serious.  I was sitting in a hospital room in a chair, looking over at Cody who was sitting with his back to me, with his hands folded and ignoring me.  I looked at the empty hospital bed and somehow, it made sense to me.  

Then, there was darkness, and Melony came out of it, with Stanley in her bookbag.  She looked at me and said "Be careful Mommy." and hugged my leg.  I looked into the darkness and saw nothing else, other than Melony staring up with me with tears in her eyes.  

I woke up wanting to cry.  I know I went manic earlier today and felt like crap, but this is the icing on the cake.  I don't want to leave my house now, and I still want to cry.  I had plans later tonight, but I'm really debating on going now.  It could just be that I was crashing from mania still, or maybe I'm getting sick.  It could be hundreds of things.  But my mom always taught me to go with my gut feeling if I'm ever nervous.